What else could this possibly be besides coke?

so i've been worried for a long time that my live-in boyfriend is hiding something from me, but i've always just shrugged it off as paranoia. the longer i know him, the more i realize how dishonest he is.

he is 32 and broke. he always has a job, but he is in debt to all kinds of places. he's in default on an old student loan. he never graduated. he has no nice possessions. no car. no license because he lost it when he was in his twenties and just never bothered getting it back. i always thought this was just because his jobs were too low-paying (he's a line cook) but now i think it might be something else. we do smoke pot sometimes, but i don't think he could possibly spend all that much on pot.

a few other pieces of evidence have come to light lately.

-he has trouble sleeping, sometimes on weekends he will stay up for the whole night and then sleep for 18 or more hours the next day.

-he has all these problems with his nose. he's constantly blowing it. he's been blowing out blood for like 3 weeks, yet he doesn't seem concerned and he doesn't want to see a doctor about it.

-his weed dealer is also a big coke dealer. he talks a lot about how he needs to quit smoking, but i think maybe his real concern is something else that he needs to quit.

-i've found packs of cigarettes hidden around the house, and he absolutely hates cigarettes... except when he is either drunk or on hard drugs.

-he has lots of issues with his sex drive and erections and stuff.



and here's the biggest tip-off-



-the other weekend, after he stayed up all night, while he was sleeping away the whole next day, i found some small bits of grainy white substance on our kitchen counter. i tasted it. it was very bitter and made my tongue numb. i haven't been around coke in a couple years, but nothing else tastes like coke. as far as i know.

-yesterday i found a cut off drinking straw badly hidden under our microwave.



i've confronted him with this evidence and he just denies it up and down. he says he hates cocaine and never touches the stuff.

is there any other possible explanation? i really doubt it, but maybe something i haven't thought of yet...What else could this possibly be besides coke?
Coke numbs the tounge, which you probably know. It sounds like either coke, or meth. And with you saying he stays up long amounts of time I would say it might have been meth... All the clues you found, you know he is being dishonest. If his behavior continues I would pack my stuff and leave. Dating a drug addict is the wrong path to go. Hey at least if thats what he wants to be he let you know before you married him right. RUN honey.What else could this possibly be besides coke?
If it made your tongue numb, it could be heroin or some other pain killer.
he's not the right person for you you more if he has no money but has money to buy drugs leave him good luck